30 poems. 30 days: Day 14 The Battle (for breakups)

Have you ever experienced a breakup and in that moment you thought it was the best decision ever but then the reality sets in and you realize how much you miss that person. You dare not tell them you miss them, you make them think you don't care about them, when they call or when you see them out you act real nonchalant but deep inside, your heart is whispering i miss you. But honestly, you don't want the relationship back. Perhaps you just want that friendship back; For that person to be the person you met before the craziness that can occur in a relationship. For a simple breakup without any drama it can be difficult to remain friends with someone you still have feelings about. So the internal battle continues but every battle has a conclusion.
Heads up, big smile, this too shall pass; God has something better!
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The Battle

I can't stop thinking about you,

trying to occupy my time.

Trying to do other things,

walking straight on an uneven line.

Trying to avoid seeing you out,

but wanting to see you so bad.

Trying not to sound excited when you call,

and when you don't;

getting mad.

Trying to keep my heart a float,

not beating outside my chest.

Trying to keep it closed away,

putting my emotions laying rest.

Trying not to think of if you care,

or even miss seeing my face.

Putting my finger on the issue,

but always losing my place.

Trying to read your every move

and the ones when you stand still.

Moving my eyes to avoid your gaze

slowly lacking the will.

Trying not to try to do,

the things I say I won't.

Doing what I want to do,

even if I don't.

Escaping to that part of me,

that never felt this way before.

Getting lost on the journey,

opening the wrong door.

Hiding behind the wall in me,

invisible to the naked eye.

Trying to remain honest with myself

but always living this lie...

4 double lives